Well after months of just sitting on my ass and daydreaming about stupid notions I've decided to pick up working out again. Perhaps this sounds pretty dumb (at least it does to me) but I use to work out quite a bit when I was in high school....I wasn't skinny by any means I think the smallest size I've ever been is an 11 but quite frankly I really liked myself at that size. After high school graduation I went into this junk food craze and gained more than those dreaded Freshmen 15.....I ballooned! :[
After that I pretty much quit working out and just accepted the fact that I was obese...yes I'm morbidly obese in medical terms. I've been told that I don't look as large as I really am but that's because I gain weight pretty evenly across my body and I suppose my height helps in that aspect too (I'm 5'7"). I don't have anyone else to blame about the state that my body is in but myself and I want to set an example for my little sister who's 7 years old. I've heard that you can't truly love someone if you don't love yourself and I have to agree. I understand that there are some people who can't lose the weight or gain because of a medical condition but I'm like this because I made the wrong decisions.
I live in a city where we rank as one of the top heaviest city in America. There is no pride in having a title like that I want to promote a healthy living for my sister and inspire her to be a better person for herself and others. What better way to start than by doing that for myself as well. Right now I'm at a size 16 borderline 17 in clothes I gained that much weight in a little as 2 years I can easily lose that weight if I just strap down and take care of myself.
Today I started to work out! I hadn't done it such a long time and I realized pretty quickly how out of shape I was! I was pretty horrified....of course I had noticed before the work out..especially when I walked at school. I was so use to walking before that it never tired me out but all of sudden I was having a hard time walk up a hill or some stairs and decided no more. I have 2 work out videos that I'm going to be using in the next several days, Slim in 6 and Insanity.
For those of you that have heard of Insanity probably think I'm pretty insane for trying especially since I hadn't been working out in such a long time...I found out pretty quickly how tiring it was. I decided to then use the Slim in 6 video first before trying Insanity. I want to build up some cardio and just get my body accustomed to working out before I seriously try the Insanity video.
My goal with blogging about this is to 1) Motivate myself, 2) share my experience and frustrations, and 3) to keep track of my progress. Today was pretty small just a 25 minute work out that had my blood pumping and my heart pounding but right now I feel so good!! I don't feel so down, lazy, and listless like how I had been feeling the last few months. I know I'll be a little sore tomorrow but I'm looking forward to working out in the morning. I'm also going to try and keep track of what I eat...not really a journal about what goes into my mouth everyday but keepin in mind that I have to eat healthy (and drinks butt loads of water).
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Friday, April 16, 2010
After the BA.....
So something that's been stressing me out lately (aside from the over protective and infuriating person called my mother) has been what I'm going to be doing after I graduate from college. By May of 2011 I should have received my BA in General Business with a concentration in International Business....sounds fancy huh....I have no idea what to do with it. I suppose this is where the dilemma comes in.
There are a few things that I can do:
Option 1) Start working.
This is probably the first option that most people want to accomplish after they get their BA and part of me wants to run with that crowd. I suppose there are more personal reasons for this (like escaping the clutches of my mother) but I also have to think about the experience I'd be gaining if I start working. The problem with this option is that I'm not exactly sure what I want to be working in once I graduate. I'm more than aware that I won't find the perfect job when I finish school but I, at least, want to work somewhere that I at least can handle and won't hate.
Option 2) Get my masters.
This is probably the answer that I've contemplated the most...from the realistic stand point. Economically a masters will help find a job that will pay more and offer me experience in a specific area. Again what that area will be I'm not sure yet. I've thought of Foreign Policy or International Business but I'm not sure what kind of jobs are in these particular fields. I suppose this comes from wanting to work for the CIA and the FBI. I'm rather fond of Law and thought that these areas would benefit me the most.
Option 3) Go to recording school.
Probably the more sponateous and risky option that I have right now...and I am seriously considering it. Why? I think in my last post I stressed that I liked music...wait did I say like...I ment to say LOVE music. Yes I'm not the next Lauryn Hill or whatever but it's something that I know I can do the rest of my life and absolutely love it. I already have my BA as a back up plan and I can always go for my masters later but I'm not sure what the freak to do.
So perhaps you've noticed that I don't necessarily have a problem with having a purpose in life it's more like having to choose between all the things I would like to do with my life. So right now...I probably won't think much about it until my Fall semester when I have to worry about taking the GMAT and choosing a school if it comes down to going to a Masters program or setting up appointments at recording schools maybe even finding a job. Who knows what'll happen I just hope I get a sign somewhere that help me make this decision.
There are a few things that I can do:
Option 1) Start working.
This is probably the first option that most people want to accomplish after they get their BA and part of me wants to run with that crowd. I suppose there are more personal reasons for this (like escaping the clutches of my mother) but I also have to think about the experience I'd be gaining if I start working. The problem with this option is that I'm not exactly sure what I want to be working in once I graduate. I'm more than aware that I won't find the perfect job when I finish school but I, at least, want to work somewhere that I at least can handle and won't hate.
Option 2) Get my masters.
This is probably the answer that I've contemplated the most...from the realistic stand point. Economically a masters will help find a job that will pay more and offer me experience in a specific area. Again what that area will be I'm not sure yet. I've thought of Foreign Policy or International Business but I'm not sure what kind of jobs are in these particular fields. I suppose this comes from wanting to work for the CIA and the FBI. I'm rather fond of Law and thought that these areas would benefit me the most.
Option 3) Go to recording school.
Probably the more sponateous and risky option that I have right now...and I am seriously considering it. Why? I think in my last post I stressed that I liked music...wait did I say like...I ment to say LOVE music. Yes I'm not the next Lauryn Hill or whatever but it's something that I know I can do the rest of my life and absolutely love it. I already have my BA as a back up plan and I can always go for my masters later but I'm not sure what the freak to do.
So perhaps you've noticed that I don't necessarily have a problem with having a purpose in life it's more like having to choose between all the things I would like to do with my life. So right now...I probably won't think much about it until my Fall semester when I have to worry about taking the GMAT and choosing a school if it comes down to going to a Masters program or setting up appointments at recording schools maybe even finding a job. Who knows what'll happen I just hope I get a sign somewhere that help me make this decision.
Music....
Recently my little sister's violin teacher asked me to play the piano for a few of the recitals. I'm pretty excited about this but also nervous since I haven't played in so many years. The songs are not difficult but after being out of practice for so long it may take me awhile to feel pretty comfortable playing a few of the songs.
It's pretty ironic that he asked me to play for him as a favor. I had been considering picking up the piano again...my fingers have been having this itch to do something...I've even gone as far as trying to relearn the violin using my sisters violin which is too small for me. I love music...especially classical music. I think one of my few regrets in life has been to not continue my musical education. That's one of the reasons why I encourage my little sister to play. Of course I don't force her to do something that she doesn't want to do but I do try to encourage her by taking her to a few shows and playing with her so that she finds it fun and gratifying.
Recently I've just been inclined to want to play a few of the instruments that I have learned. By no means am I good at any of them but I love how from instruments you can get the most sincere of emotions thru. The only problem that I face now is finding a piano to practice on. I already have one but the sound quality on it is horrible and quite frankly I find it hard to play anything on the old piano because so many of keys get stuck or are in need of some serious tuning. I know part of that is my fault because I haven't played in ages but even when I did I found the piano hard to play and stand. I feel horrible for the piano (poor thing :( ) but I really want a keyboard but the likely hood of me getting one is slim to none. More than likely I'll end up practicing at school in the piano practice rooms.
It's pretty ironic that he asked me to play for him as a favor. I had been considering picking up the piano again...my fingers have been having this itch to do something...I've even gone as far as trying to relearn the violin using my sisters violin which is too small for me. I love music...especially classical music. I think one of my few regrets in life has been to not continue my musical education. That's one of the reasons why I encourage my little sister to play. Of course I don't force her to do something that she doesn't want to do but I do try to encourage her by taking her to a few shows and playing with her so that she finds it fun and gratifying.
Recently I've just been inclined to want to play a few of the instruments that I have learned. By no means am I good at any of them but I love how from instruments you can get the most sincere of emotions thru. The only problem that I face now is finding a piano to practice on. I already have one but the sound quality on it is horrible and quite frankly I find it hard to play anything on the old piano because so many of keys get stuck or are in need of some serious tuning. I know part of that is my fault because I haven't played in ages but even when I did I found the piano hard to play and stand. I feel horrible for the piano (poor thing :( ) but I really want a keyboard but the likely hood of me getting one is slim to none. More than likely I'll end up practicing at school in the piano practice rooms.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Flagstaff
Pretty excited about going to Flagstaff, Arizona this weekend with my brothers from the fraternity. First time going out of town with people other than my family. I'm not really looking forward to all the drunk partying but I suppose I can just watch people do some hilarious things. What I'm trying to determine is what kind of music to take on the 8 hour drive over there.
Right now I'm just downloading some hip hop music that I use to listen too when I was younger. Yes I love songs that make nostalgic because they usually make me happy ^_^. Most of the people in my frat don't really like the music that I like so I know that's completely out of the question.
The only things I have to worry about at the present moment are a test on Thursday and a Spanish placement test on Friday. Hopefully I'm fluent enough that I don't have to take the first two classes (there is a difference between speaking the language and knowing the language formally).
Right now I'm just downloading some hip hop music that I use to listen too when I was younger. Yes I love songs that make nostalgic because they usually make me happy ^_^. Most of the people in my frat don't really like the music that I like so I know that's completely out of the question.
The only things I have to worry about at the present moment are a test on Thursday and a Spanish placement test on Friday. Hopefully I'm fluent enough that I don't have to take the first two classes (there is a difference between speaking the language and knowing the language formally).
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
.....repeating myself once again.
I'm constantly talking about how I want to keep up with a blog or journal but for some stupid reason I can never adher to that. I'm going to give this a shot once again making this a bit of a project for myself.
I'm not sure what I'm going to be writing about...some days might be about my life, a rant, talk about the latest thing I'm into....my disappointments, dreams, the things that matter most to me. I'm pretty sure some of the things I talk about will be random as well.
Sometimes I sit, walk around, or lay in my bed thinking all these odd ideas and every once in awhile I'll amaze myself with the stupidity that comes from my mind. I'm hoping that I learn how to put some of these ideas here so that I can come back and laugh at my randomness (I've done it before...lol) later.
I'm not sure what I'm going to be writing about...some days might be about my life, a rant, talk about the latest thing I'm into....my disappointments, dreams, the things that matter most to me. I'm pretty sure some of the things I talk about will be random as well.
Sometimes I sit, walk around, or lay in my bed thinking all these odd ideas and every once in awhile I'll amaze myself with the stupidity that comes from my mind. I'm hoping that I learn how to put some of these ideas here so that I can come back and laugh at my randomness (I've done it before...lol) later.
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