Looking over the few blogs that I have down I have to say that I've managed to accomplish nothing in my last blog....let's just say that weight seems to remain as an issue... an issue that I do feel that I need to address but, unfortunatley, I tend to treat food as a way to solve any emotional or stressful problems and I have to admit the last few months have been excruciating when it comes to living in a constant daze. The last time I wrote on this blog was on in April of this year and I'm barely managing to update it now well over a half year later.
I suppose there are too many things that I have been wanting to discuss in order to release all the tension that I'm feeling at school, home, and in my head. One of them was a bit of a summer fling...although I do hate to call it that but that's really what it was. I met over the internet (which is rather normal nowadays I suppose) and we automatically clicked in our the things we enjoyed, our hobbies, family values, etc. we also had those things that made us uniquely different. He was six years older than I was and had a son. Now I know most people would call me an idiot for dating someone with baggage but it really didn't phase me. For me it was actually a winning feature that I liked about him because he was a dedicated father who I could automatically tell that he loved his son. Sadly, things came to their end when he found that he wanted to be with someone else rather than try and work our relationship out. Now I can see that if he truly wanted to make things work we would have still remained together but he was busy thinking with his head down under versus his heart. All I have left to say is that I wish him the best of luck in life and that he finds his happiness (and I'm sure he has since he'll be having a baby sometime next year with his new partner).
Another stressful aspect of this year has been taking on the responsibilty of being Pledge Educator for my fraternity. I have to admit I did not expect this position to be as tough or time consuming as it was, had I known I would have prepared myself much better this semester. So many of the problems that I faced had beening weighing me down and exhausting me to the point of being lethargic but sometime mid-october I put the battery in again and just forced myself to react and take responsibilty of my actions. I'm not proud of my behavior and my lack of self-discipline but I'm willing to admit when I'm at fault and take responsibilty of my actions. I'm still rather frustrated that people can't grow and move passed the traditions that we're not suppose to be practicing. Nowadays there are way too many things that can be considered haczing when you talk with any fraternity. I'm afraid that there are some that don't understand this concept of what should and shouldn't be done. Something fairly important that I learned to do this semester is to just LET IT GO! To many problems had been arising from people with their hearsay and "she said this or he said that" and I was taking too seriously when the energy and time I spent exerting on these supposed problems was wasted. Now things are much better within our fraternity, perhaps, they aren't the best but we realize that we have to make things better for future generations not just ourselves.
I suppose the on thing that has truly devasted me has been the news that I won't be able to graduate in May of 2011. Since my blog about discussing my BA in International Business I had added a double major of Accounting to my already existing BA in IB. I knew it would be push me back to December of 2011 but what I ended up finding on Thursday was that I actually won't be able to graduate until May 2012. Which means that it'll take 5 years to finish my degree instead of 4 or 4 1/2. I don't know why it bothers me as much as it does but it's something I'm going to have a hard time grasping the next few weeks. Apparently I won't be able to take a few of my classes concurrently because they are prerequisites for one class or another so what I have decided to do is take a few more accouting classes in order to be CPA elegible once I graduate in 2012.
I suppose for right now that's all I have to say but perhaps sometime soon I'll sit here and write about the event of what's happened in my life.
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